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Heath Ledger is dead.
Possibly due to drug overdose (possibly? cute guy, succesful acting career, anything is possible -- at least its not aids, the slowly but surely dying is more humiliating because you can hear their snide comments when they are being given)...

Too many people are dying these days - oh wait, death didnt stop from occuring since time immemorial -- it's just that, it's more sensationalised now more than ever. Remember those days, when snail mail was the 'in thing' and that you have to wait and agonized for over a month before you can plan a dinner party? Dear Monica, I want to give you a party, when do you think you can come by? I'll await your reply next month.

Everything is happening so fast these days, I can't hardly breathe. People constantly changing jobs, relationships, friends, favorites as if everything is dispensible -- oh well, everything really is. But not everything is disposable. Not everything should go to trash just becuase you've 'used' them already.Sometimes, we confuse the two.

I wish I can follow my own advice. I have restless feet and a wandering soul. I ahve so many things I want to do, that I bid goodbye to almost everything because I'm afraid staying a bit longer might help them chain me down. I excuse myself to almost anything, loving the solace of my loneliness and relishing the muted sound of my walls. I always cry out that I am trapped but almost always, nobody can get hold of me -- trapped in my own restlessness. I move in a private circle with my other foot ready to run...

So when I die, I guess, it would be a lonely death.
But all deaths are lonely becuase you get to die alone... no more, no less.

that pinoy called reynaldo lapuz...

move over william hung, reynaldo lapuz is here.

im sure you are all familiar with American Idol and are particularly interested in its first episodes where they show people auditioning as they scour the different places in US for constestants. And if you were patient enough even though you are experiencing gas because of laughing, you'd remember REYNALDO LAPUZ - 44 years old, from Dallas, male, whom people, at the sight of him, would bow down because of his 'royal'/elvis/furry/birdy white custome that comes with a cape. He was the last contestant, and the one that made the judges sing and dance with him.

When I first saw him, I was like - "is he filipino?" ..."oh my God! he IS Filipino?!!!"... but the initial shock didn't last long. I was amused. Filipinos are slowly making a mark in the world. And now, here's one who was able to put his flag on American Idol.

I was scared to hear him sing, but when he did - he actually could. Unlike William Hung, he hit his notes right...well, who could say he didn't, he was singing his own composition. He wasn't rude, he was grateful, and he gracefully accepted the word "NO". In fact, He was in tears in the end, grateful to have been given the chance, and as he puts it..."free of charge" (o diba pinoy talaga).

Simon you are a great person.

You give chance to everyone to sing to the whole world. I thank you.
You are heaven’s chosen to give chance to any talent for free of charge.

Even they throw you negative words, but there are many people who really like you, who really admire you.
One of them is me, you are a great person, Simon.

Funny how I can transparently see his being a Filipino. His manners, his humility, his gratefulness for little small things, his bad taste in costumes (ehe!). Others call it, colonial mentality. Maybe...maybe not. But one thing I am sure of, I am proud of him for understanding the word "NO". Didn't cajoled the judges, didn't threatened, did't even begged for a second chance. Being denied and not accepting it is more humiliating than singing the wrong note. Being a bad singer is better than being someone who doesn't have manners.

So everyone who knows the song ... sing ^.^

I am your brother
Your best friend forever
Singing the songs
The music that you like
We’re brothers til the end of time
Together forever til the end of time
I am your brother
Your best friend forever
Singing the songs
The music that you like
We’re brothers til the end of time
Together or not, you’re always in my heart
Your hurting feelings
Will reign no more.

gravity is against my side

Gravity is just not cooperating. It's keeping me on the ground-- not letting me soar enough to have that itchy chip on my shoulder melt...I just have to get closer to the sun, one way or another -- Or I get cranky and deppressed and just downright rude. I tried jumping butgravity pulls my legs back on the ground reminding me that me jumping is not working...and it even had the nerve to pin the blame on to my weight. I swear to God I saw Li Mo Bai jump and soar and dance on bamboo trees. So what makes him so special that gravity lets him fly just like that...oh -- never mind, he died at the end of the movie.

*Sigh. So what do you do when you are in pain? What do you do when you feel suffocated? What do you want when you just can't bear to stand on the ground anymore? What do you plead for when all your bargaining chips are down?

I stare at the walls. There is nothing to do...unless gravity sucks my eyeballs out. yuck.

I am a Saggittarius

**lost my link on this. will find it and post it's source once i've found it again. for the meantime, enjoy reading...

The Good
• Ambition is inexhaustible, and they are not easily deterred when their goals are in sight
• Love traveling and exploration, the more so because minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought
• Ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed.
• Are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice.
• Are usually modest and are often religious, with a strong sense of morality, though they tend to overemphasize the ethical codes they follow and not religion/god itself
• Have both profound and widely ranging minds, equipped with foresight and good judgement
• Can be witty conversationalists
• Love to initiate new projects (they make excellent researchers) and have an urge to understand conceptions that are new to them
• Think rapidly, are intuitive and often original, but are better at adapting than inventing
• Are magnanimous in forgiving offenses and are responsible when looking after the elderly in the family
• Are natural teachers and philosophers with a talent for expounding the moral principles and laws which seem to explain the universe.
• Have an interest in cars and aircraft - with emphasis on the sporting side racing, rallying etc.
• Are reliable, seldom betraying any trust given to them.
• More apt then the average to make an uncongenial alliance.

The Sexy

• Are flirtatious, devoted and playful
• Have a tendency to want to roam the world endlessly, to continuously question life’s path and explore every whim and curiosity
• Being tied down is frightening, thus instinctively seek out partners who aware of the smaller picture, and someone who will want to keep moving around.
• Idealize the notion of love and expect lovers to live up to high intellectual expectations
• Am happiest with someone vibrant and youthful
• Are an artistic and graceful lover
• Mental stimulation is as exciting as the sexual kind; if the conversation is honest and open, things will continue to develop and grow
• If the marriage is successful, they will be faithful spouses and indulgent parents

The Bad

• Are prone to flare up over trifles
• Impatient
• Can be exacting, domineering and inconsiderate
• Restlessness, if excessive, can jeopardize more than their own stability
• Need to fell free and are often faced with the choice of allowing their careers to take over their lives at the expense of the love of their spouse and family
• Can be impulsively angry and know how to be outspoken and say what will hurt their adversaries the most.

About the Centaur
Centaurs were the great scholars and intellectuals of Greek and Roman myth, but they could also be hotheaded and aggressive.

Compatible Signs:
* Most compatible: Aries, Leo
* Semi-Compitable: Capricorn, Aquarius, Libra, Scorpio
* A 50-50 chance with: Taurus, Cancer, Sagittarius
* Incompatible: Pisces, Gemini, Virgo

Chinese Zodiac: Silver Phoenix

I can't sleep...

*yawns...i am soo sleepy yet I can't sleep. I am thinking of things that you need not consider when you wake up around 4 in the morning...like, I really need to decorate the room downstairs, I need to re arrange furnitures, buy a wall decor or two? oh, how about the pooh frame I saw, it was really cool...I'm hungry. *yawns.

I seriously need to go to sleep - problem is, sleep jsut evades me. I don't want hit the bed when everybody is up -- busily cooking and cleaning and shouting that breakfast is ready. Anyways, if I miss a good night's sleep, I'd have momentary lapses and I tend to stare at space for no apparent reason except that my brain is blinking and is on the verge of a short circuit - plus, I get cranky. Sleep deprivation can be a reason for electric shortage in the brain thus, putting me in a constant, "shock-me-please-mode", and if satisfactorily answered, may result to a voltage power outage that might result to a not so pleasant experience for the one that answered the "call" -- e.g. digimon evolution - from a walking-talking-specimen to a high end target of anger.

*yawns, I'm gonna try and hit the bed, open the television for comfort...and maybe sleep will dawn on me (and pray that nobody prematurely yells for breakfast).

p.s. oist kitten, aha naman ka, ang pasalubong nako imong gi-panos ha!

I'm a new postie ^.^

Hehehe! it's been a looong wait. I learned about payperpost in davaosale and thought that it was really cool. Ok..ok... the person also posted that she and her husband was able to go to Disneyland -- that was the one line that motivated me. I want to go to Disneyland too and hug mickey mouse and maybe even kiss Donald Duck. Not to mention I was bored beyond recognition. And also I'm a kind of girl who would be excited over winning stuff from crowns no matter how stupid it is...so why not try this -- plus I have the trip to Disneyland as my focus and prize.

So I signed up...not being a fan reader of any manuals and FAQ I did have a hard time figuring out why my blogs were rejected. So these are some points you have to look out when you sign up...

• blogs must be 90 days old
• blogs must have entries of more than 20 or more
• entries must not have a gap of more than 30 days in between
• exercise the english language

for more complicated stuff get your instructions here.

write a blog

When you sign up, you will see in the dashboard all the opportunities that are available and the pay they will give you once your blog and your post is approved. More often than not, it will take them two days to confirm whether your blog has been rejected. When your blog's been approved, only then can you qualify to post. In the Opportunities tab, you will see the different companies wanting to have someone write soemthing about them and the pay they are willing to give. If you click on it, the terms and conditions, as well as the nature and minimum words accepted is written there. I don't know about other forms of payment, but what I'm using right now is Paypal. For Philippine bloggers, we have no paypal in the phil, one suggestion is that you can have someone you trust in the US to create a paypal account for you, so all your earnings will go there and you can have internal arrangements to have it sent to you.Payments vary from $5 to $100 to more. Oh, can take as much as 3 opportunities per day.

**not all opportunites are available to you. Some companies have their own specification like location of the blogger and the kind of blogs they have.Example, one company would only want bloggers from North America, Austaralia and Canads to write about their products and services.

refer a friend
Aside from blogging, you can also earn through referrals. If someone clicked your link and signed up and was approved. Most likely 90 days after he/she signed up, providing that he/she gets approved. If he/she signs up and was not approved -- sorry.

Did I mentioned that it's free?
I read somewhere that if something like this asks you money upon signing up, most likely it is a scam. Happy blogging guys ^.^

out with karen...

...just got home and am happy to see Karen is in Davao... As usual, we went to get a burger mcdo and fries while we happily chat about what's happening between us. We went to see the movie, sakal, sakali, saklolo...a manila film fest entry. It was about couples and their meddling in laws. We were laughing not because the movie made us laugh, but how we get to talk about the characters and how it really is too real for comfort. I can see my mom everywhere plastered in the movie. Always fussing about whether I was fed ok and just damn nosy. Karen's mom can also be seen there and it made us really laugh...Do you remember that thingie about - if you want to know your future, look at your mother...coz you're most likely to turn out like her?

sheeeeshhh...i'd grow up to be semi-psychotic and karen will develop an Obssessive cumpulsive disorder...just great.

I was tagged!

I was tagged by J A Y author of dat money & dat curious .

I'm supposed to give the month i was born -- december.

“DECEMBER: Loyal and generous ( mweheheh!). Sexy (evil laugh). Patriotic(yep). Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor (sometimes). Logical (I'm a philo major you know).”

Here are the rules: 1. Mention the person who tagged you and created to link back to them. 2, Copy-pastes the traits for all the twelve months. 3, Pick your month of birth. 4, Highlight the traits that apply to you. 5, Tag 12 people (or more like I ended up doing) and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving to comment for them. 6, Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it.

THE MONTHLY FLAVORS, WHICH ARE YOU?

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to servants others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Good and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in to way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs not motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks to make with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes Time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. Not difficulties in studying. Loves to be halo. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Good and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to consul others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivated oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not beloveds of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has to lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Aim and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Good and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If to there is to will, to there is to way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be halo. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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new year blues

my head hurts and the lights here in the room is hurting my eyes. What a way to start the new year. *sigh did anybody do anything new to celebrate the new year this year? hmmm... so far, it's the same signing, eating, getting drunk routine -- same as last year, except that today, the liquor is not that flourishing (krisis) and attendance of relatives may not be perfect (mahal pamasahe hehehe).

We all know that there is a firecracker ban in Davao City for quite some time now, and so, imagine my surprise when I heard firecrackers and stuff. I just moved in to my new home last june, so I'm not really familiar with the people here...yes, I've met some, but I haven't eaten from anybody's house yet, sheeesh....anyways, the firecrackers really jolted me back to reality...

NEW YEAR NA PALA!!!

it didn't last long though...well, firecrackers are noisy and it being illegal, you're bound to get caught sooner or later...the police won't need to interrogate your accomplices, the firecracker itself cries wolf...it's ironic...you cannot hide really when you use firecrackers...it's too noisy...either that...or a part of your anatomy will catch on fire -- consider ur house as an appendage.

Haaaayyyy.... anyways, so it was noisy last night while we, on the other hand are totally unprepared. Our kaldero have all been used, so we can't take it out to bang it on our gates and no torototot is available...so we blasted the karaoke machine...12 midnight came and more noise was heard...we belted out with the mic in position.... and we won -- we howled till everybody was quiet...we stopped not out of sympathy -- but our conscience and common sense, as well as our instinct for survival dictated it (angry neighbors can be extremely dangerous, you know)...which reminds me of the book - 500 people you'll meet in hell...what's the connection? well, one of the people you'll meet, according to the book, is your neighbor with their blasted karaoke machine...

uhh---does that mean, I'm destined to go to hell? waaahhh!

upon meeting you...

...it was as thought i had fallen into a pool of water, it was as though the moon was singing my name...it was all i had hoped for

(bilhah - red tent)